Saturday: Something bad happened. The worse is yet to come. Sunday: Town. Slippers. Ring. Teo Heng. I need shopping.
Yesterday was reflecting day. Sunday as usual. I woke up thinking what happened still but I have to be positive so ya. I wasn't in a mood to shop even when everything was on sale. Everything just seems to be so wrong. I don't know how to celebrate F's day again. Part of me hates him, another part I want him to forgive me. I want to tell him that I smoke and I will quit, I want to tell him that I will study. I want to tell him that I'm sorry. But no, I hate him for whatever he done and whatever he said to hurt me. I just don't know how to mend things up. Even granny. Doing so much household chores for me this past 2 weeks but I still shout at her. Sigh~ I need someone to talk to so badly. Just someone that I can cry to.
T, I will forgive you no matter what. It is just so hard to talk cause I thought we were determined to being more mature. But whatever it is, we learn from it. H and I will be here for you. We might be coming over on tomorrow.